I've decided that my livejournal is pretty emo. HAH. So now it's time for a HAPPY POST.
Christian Siriano is seriously my new favorite gay. I apologize to Marco, but i don't think he's not as FIERCE as Christian. haha. (i hope he never reads this) Instead of studying, i would just continuously replay the youtube video of "Christian Siriano's Fiercest Moments." OMG, I LOVE HIM. I also want to take him home. He shall be my new gay friend. *squeels*
J'ai echoue toute mes examens aussi. I think i have issues. I can't seem to, you know, study anymore. I just bum around, go on youtube, livejournal (hence now) and.... basically i don't know what im doing. All I know is i always end up sitting on my bed here at 12 and starting to study til like 4. I'm nocturnalllll. :( le tear.
I miss my buddies :( they dont talk to me anymore, but thats ok, ive got buddies here too. So don't worry guys, im not gonna emo it out this time. *cuts wrist* lol jk.
Technically I'm supposed to be studying/ finishing for chem lab. Well, surprise surprise. I suckfatass.
i've also decided that i probably shouldn't smoke anymore. *probably* It's not like i'm addicted, but i don't know why no one believes me. i don't even smoke that often. I haven't smoked in like a month guys. I have 0 withdrawl symptoms, how can i be addicted. :(
Everything has taken a turn once again. I can only wear a mask and hide everything.
What can I do?
I try so hard, yet nothin seems to change.
Sometimes i'm so envious of everyone else. Born happy. But if you didn't read this today, you guys probably wouldnt know that behind this mask is sadness. It's not my fault, but why am i dragged into this?
It's your fault, you should fix it. Its not my job to clean up your mess.
If anything happens, I will never forgive you.
My stomache feels queezy.